Sunday, August 21, 2011
baby got back
Saturday, August 6, 2011
We're having a baby
Thursday, August 4, 2011
baby bums
Thursday, July 14, 2011
love.
The Greatest Gift
Today the doctor confirmed what my heart already knew: I am carrying a child. This is a joy unlike any other. It is too amazing for science and too wonderful for words.
Today a stranger in an elevator confirmed what my body already knew: My child is becoming obvious. "When are you due?" As I answer, maternal pride wells up from within. It is too complex for science and too new for words.
Today a strong kick confirmed what my mind already knew: I hold within my womb a human being. Another kick follows as if to say, "I am a real, live person". It is too spiritual for science and too precious for words.
Sally A. Powell
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Fun stuff.
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This week we have the water birth class at North Fulton on Sunday. It's required by Tenet to labor/deliver in the water. I was planning to take it at AMC, but when I called last week to register they said the next available slot was Sept. 1st. Whoops, procrastinated on that one! I thought that was cutting it a little close to my due date so I just decided to go up to Roswell to take it. On Saturday, Jenny is throwing me a shower with some of my old Acsys co-workers. I'm looking forward to catching up with them!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Article
30 weeks down, 10-12 more to go. :)
We're in full blown preparation mode, in terms of birthing this baby anyway (I need to get my butt in gear with finishing the nursery - the tree wall decal is NOT on the wall, I still haven't decided on bedding for the day bed, I need to buy a crib mattress, the amazing crib skirt that Tad's mom made isn't on yet, I need to go back to Michael's to finish my bird houses, order prints from etsy that I want, and on and on and on). But what I HAVE been doing is signing up for an independent birthing class (8/13 is the big day), reading books and articles to prepare (currently tackling Birthing From Within, with Ina May's Guide to Childbirth and Ricki Lake's Your Best Birth to follow). I even have one on the way from the library for Tad to read: The Birth Partner: A Complete Guide to Childbirth for Dads, Doulas and All Other Labor Companions. Of course, he doesn't know it yet but I look at him with sweet eyes and say it's important to me maybe he'll look at it. I'm kidding.
We've also met one doula that I REALLY like. She came over last week and talked to us for almost 2 hours. I promised myself I would meet at least 2 before making a decision so I'm still looking at folks... So not too shabby on the preparation side. I know planning an unmedicated birth with no preparation is silly because I'm not trying to fool myself that this will be the hardest and most empowering thing I've ever done if it works out. (Which is another thing I've realized - I can make all the plans in the world, but at the end of the day, the baby determines what will happen and that may be a cesarean delivery, who knows!)
But Tad and I are getting excited and most of our conversations are around the baby, how we envision labor, life changing when the baby gets home, the dogs adjusting, maternity leave, childcare at GP for Kids, etc. etc. etc. It's kind of hard not to talk about when you have this massive belly around, a baby flipping and kicking 24-7, peeing 20 times/day, and my hips hurting from the ligaments stretching and preparing. :)
One thing I am super excited about is our baby growing up at Buckhead Church and having them dedicated there. When Tad and I started going there 5 years ago, I remember thinking I couldn't wait to have a baby so they could go to Waumba Land (the pre-school space). :) We are blessed to go to such an awesome church, no doubt. Speaking of being blessed, I really want to put the lyrics of this song in the nursery:
He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
And oh, how He loves us oh
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all
He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
We are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy, wet kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way He loves us.
(David Crowder Band)
Monday, June 6, 2011
Oops, wrong week
Friday, June 3, 2011
Over halfway!
We had the ultrasound at 19 weeks and it showed that the baby was measuring right on target. Awesome! We saw the bladder, the four chambers of the heart, the spine and the legs and arms. It was incredible. I've often told friends who are having ultrasounds "be sure to drink a Coke before so the baby moves around" and of course I forgot this advice so the most we got was a little wave. But it was still very cool to see this kid who has taken over my body. :)
Here are some pics:
The past couple of weeks have been uneventful in terms of the baby besides the kicking and moving becoming more noticeable. That's been my favorite part of the pregnancy so far - it truly is a miracle! And I love that Tad has been able to fill it for the past 5 weeks or so. I think it makes it more real for him besides just seeing my growing belly. The baby is most active in the morning and at night. Tad's mom said that both Tammie and Tad ended up being the most awake during the time they were most active in the womb. Tad and I are hoping for a night-lover because neither of us are morning people! We'll see.
Another important thing to note is that I've had ZERO heartburn. If the wives tail holds true, this means that my kid will have nothing more than some peach fuzz, just like me when I was an infant. (I don't think I had hair until I was 4!). Tad didn't have much either so my dreams of having a baby with a head full of hair are probably hopeless. :)
Tad's parents came over for 2 weeks and completely re-did our house. Not kidding. They painted every room, re-did the hardwoods in the nursery, put in a new threshold in the foyer and helped Tad build a shed for the backyard. They were amazing help and I'm so thankful. There's no telling how many times they went to Sherwin Williams. I bet at least 10. Dad, Tad, Tad's dad and a couple of guys from our small group also cut a bunch of limbs and one tree down in the backyard too. Our hope is to grow some grass back there in the fall! The house looks so much better.
Tomorrow I will be 27 weeks. The thought of only having around 13 weeks to go is crazy. Time has flown by, just like everyone said it would. For the past week I've been trying to research birthing classes and doulas. We still haven't decided if we're going to use a doula, but most likely we will. I figure Tad and I can use all the help we can get with the first one and doing it with no medication.
I go to Intown Midwifery Tuesday and have the glucose test done to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I'm going to try to be good and keep my sweet intake to a minimum until then, but of course I'm craving ice cream. I think because it's getting warmer (it's been in the 90's) and anything cool just hits the spot.
The Bivens family is heading down to the beach on the 18th and I couldn't be more excited for a vacation. I've only had one day off since December! The only downside is Tad can't go since he just started at Forest Park. That's a bummer. But regardless, I can't wait to lounge on one of those low beach chairs close to the water with a good book in my hand! I may even buy some O'douls or make some virgin margaritas!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
19 weeks!
Jess took this picture of me last Sunday at the Braves game. Today I hit the 19 week mark. Can't believe I'm almost halfway done. Everyone told me it would go by fast and I didn't believe them. Now I do!
Monday I went for my monthly midwife appointment... everything is still going well. I've gained 8 lbs so far (I think giving up desserts for Lent has saved me several pounds!) and the baby's heart rate was around 160. I asked if it's true that girls have higher heart rates but the midwife said she had heard that, but wasn't sure. Like everything else, it depends. My uterus is right below my belly button, which is on track for how far along I am. The midwife even showed Tad how to press down on my belly and feel it. Apparently it feels like a bicep. Strange.
I've started to feel the baby move. Last Wednesday I felt some light poking, but now it's much more apparent. Like little tapping inside of me. I have to be sitting pretty still to notice it, and it's always on my left side. The midwife said that the placenta is on the right and the baby on the left, probably. I kind of forgot that part of pregnancy (feeling the baby inside of you). It calms me. I can't wait for Tad to be able to feel it too! I'm feeling like a million bucks these days. Well, maybe not a million but several hundred thousand. ;) I have a lot more energy, only need around 8 hours of sleep (I still shoot for more!) and minimal puking. (Although I ate Oz last night and threw it all up after I brushed my teeth and gagged -- oops.) The only major symptom left from the first trimester is having to pee a lot during the night. I typically get up anywhere from 2-5 times, even if I stop drinking liquids hours before I go to bed. I can tell my body is going through some changes... everything is loosening up from the progesterone, which make my hips and back sore. I've never been to a chiropractor before but I'm going Monday and I feel like it's a few days before Christmas -- I can't wait! There's also a massage therapist on staff so I'm hoping for a double dose of goodness.
Next Friday at 9:00 I go in for an ultrasound. It will be my first one so Tad and I are stoked to see this kid! Nope, not finding out what we're having (that's always the next thing people ask). If all goes well that day, then we'll get into planning mode. Tad's parents are planning to come in a few weeks to help with the nursery and some house stuff (building a privacy fence, painting the house, re-doing some of the flooring). I'm sure mom and dad will be here too. The thought of all the work exhausts me but I'm excited at the same time.
We were supposed to be in Helen for the weekend and take Lilli and Avery to Cabbage Patchland for their Easter Egg Hunt, but the weather last night was crummy. Instead, Abby and I are going to the Dawsonville outlets to find some maternity clothes. I've worn out the bella band and I want to get some work dresses. Abby will also get to meet Brecken for the first time because we're having lunch with Jess and the little guy. I'm sure it will make Abby have the baby bug again, like she says holding a baby always does!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Baby Busby's birth story...
Since week 11 things have gotten much better, but the sickess and nausea didn't stop at week 12. Not that I was counting on it, but I will admit that by week 14 I was pretty over it. It mostly happened when I let myself get too hungry and if I went to sleep a little hungry, then it was all over when I woke up in the morning. It's funny how your body adjusts. I never thought I would get used to puking almost daily, but I did. Although a couple of weeks ago, I got sick 3 times in a day and by the afternoon I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. Tad was working that night so I was home alone with the dogs and down in the dumps, which is a rare for me. I prayed and I was reminded through the prayer that I am creating a life inside of me, and that my body is now being shared. Needless to say, I sucked it up, went to bed and haven't felt sorry for myself since. :)
I always thought to myself that I would keep a baby book up to date, remember the important milestones of a baby but I'm already slacking... and I'm not only talking about the blog. I have yet to take a profile baby bump pic. I remember looking at Jess' and thinking they were so cute, but I also realized my bathroom mirror is too high to get a shot and the full length mirror that I have is narrow. I need Tad's help with it but I never think about it until I'm alone in the house. The bump is there, and I love it. I joked to Tad the other day that I love being pregnant because I don't have to worry about sitting up straight and sucking in. Lol. Not that I sucked in constantly but it's very freeing to have this belly out there and it not be an unhealthy thing. I find myself wearing tight shirts around the midsection just so I can see it when I look down. I'm sure before long that won't be a problem at all! I still think that people at work just think I've packed on some pounds, but I've started to tell some of my hiring managers. Most are men, but they still seem very happy for me and ask a bunch of questions. I just love the people I work with.
Lindsay Merriman Lewis had her baby, Leyton Knox, on the 1st. As Jess said, "two down and one to go". We're already talking about all the fun we're gonna have camping with the little ones next year. I'm so happy that we all took the dive into motherhood around the same time, and that our kids will be friends. They'll have us beat since we didn't meet until the 6th grade!
Also, I'm still so happy that I chose Intown Midwifery. I met a girl, Shaneen (a friend of Mandy's), who was seeing them and I found out through facebook that she had her baby a couple of weeks ago. Come to find out, she has a blog and I just read the birthing story and saw pictures of the baby and family. Anjli (one of the midwives) was in some of them and the joy on her face brought tears to my eyes. You can tell she's doing her life's calling. I have thought since first pregnant that I hope I get Margaret to birth the baby because she's the most experienced, but after seeing those pics, I almost want Anjli. Shaneen's blog gave me an honest look at natural birth. I know it will not be easy, but I've stuck to my guns about it. There are a couple of reasons I don't want an epidural: I've anxious to see what my body was made to do, I think it's safest for the baby and me, and the recovery time will be easier. Now, after reading Shaneen's birthing story, I have another. The doula told her, "You didn’t do this so you could wear a badge on your arm for having an un-medicated birth, you did this so you could give your daughter the best gift of all: to let her write her own birth story. You let the mystery unfold on its own." Wow, well said. Decisions surrounding bringing a baby into the world are very personal, but I love the thought of things happening in the baby's own time. Although this is not something I can plan for because a lot can happen as I get closer to full term, I pray that the baby will be able to choose when it's ready to come into this world. And as a side note, I am so glad to have Tad be my partner in all this and be supportive of my decision of doing it naturally. I know it will be hard for him to see me in that much pain. Hopefully I don't break his hand or throw ice at him. :) [Tad, I love you so much!]
So I was 17 weeks yesterday, or Monday, depending on who's counting. The baby is the size of a turnip this week. Its skeleton is changing form cartilage to bone and sweat glands are starting to develop. Ahh, the miracle of life. It's crazy to think that we could find out the sex now if we wanted to... but I think it will be worth the surprise!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Honeymooning!
Brecken
I forgot to mention in my last post that Brecken Thomas Conrey was born on February 5th. :) We were at the cabin with small group but went by to see Jess, Wayne and baby Brecken (also bb, haha) on the way home. I think this was the first emotional pregnancy moment because I cried as soon as I started holding him and then again when Tad held him and he broke out into this huge grin. He's just so beautiful and I can't believe that he belongs to Jessica!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Hearts Day
Jenny said she wished she had kept a little log of symptoms to know if the pregnancy was the same for each of her kids so here's a quick recap of what I've felt:
Week 9: Hardest week to date in a lot of ways. The nausea wasn't constant, but I threw up more. It was sudden waves of nausea when I let myself get too hungry and then tried to eat something too late. Didn't work well. I'm not sure I'll be eating collard greens for a while. That burned coming up. Sorry, TMI. The fatigue was also at a high. There were a couple of nights I went to bed at 7 or 8 o'clock and still didn't feel rested when my alarm went off at 6:15 AM (so I would snooze until 7:00). My friend Jamie (Myle's wife) said she tried to explain to him that it was a tired she had never felt before. I couldn't agree more. She also said that getting up with Jude at all hours of the night still doesn't compare to the fatigue she felt during the first trimester. THERE'S HOPE! ;)
Week 10: I pretty much slept the weekend away, even though it was 60 and sunny outside and I could've used a dose of vitamin D. I did go to a wine party (and faked it really well, if I do say so myself) and then to Married Life Live at Buckhead Church with some of our small group and the Peeks. Tad wanted to get a drink afterwards with friends since he passed his EMT practical, but thankfully Jenny took me home and we both fell asleep on the couch watching The Office. I'm glad I have another worn out pregnant companion. :) As far as symptoms, the nausea has gotten better, but I'm not sure if it's because I figured out how to keep it under control or if it's going away. I'm hoping for the latter. Sunday I went to Target to buy a bella band and then went to the grocery store, and I remember thinking wow, what a big deal - I really have been avoiding the public, except work people and small group. Of course, I threw up when I got home because I was out too long without eating. :)
So this blog is not a pity me party even though I felt like all I've got to tell of the pregnancy so far is a positive pee stick and the terrible side effects... but there is good news! We had our second midwife visit yesterday. This time we met with Anjli and we loved her just as much as Margaret! How lucky are we to instantly fall in love with the people delivering this baby? I feel like it's such a blessing, and that the birthing experience will be so much better because one of them will be a part of it.
This appointment was a little more invasive than the last, but I was thankful for that because I wanted all the confirmation I could get! First she did a general physical exam and then she took a look at my cervix. She said, "It's the color of pregnancy -- a bluish tint." Who knew the thing changed colors? God didn't miss any details, that's for sure. Then she felt it and said it was the right size for 9.5 - 10 weeks along. (I was 10 weeks on Saturday.) It felt good to know my body was doing the right things to support the baby.
But the most exciting part of the visit was that we heard the heartbeat and it was the best V Day gift EVER! I was a little worried it was still too early, but she found it pretty quickly and it was 150-160 bpm which she said is good! We recorded it and have been listening to it a lot like little giddy kids. It was very exciting! She said the chances of miscarriage after hearing a heartbeat go down to about 3%. Music to my ears!
Tad was hoping to tell folks after hearing the heartbeat, but I'm still holding on to the 12 week mark. It's just what you do, right? I know my parents and Tad's parents are really eager, but I told them both that's the deal with finding out first, you gotta wait the longest to spread the news.
Here's to a fast two weeks!
Monday, January 31, 2011
I am loved
Secondly, I have the best friends in the world. No, really. The girls that I have told about baby busby have been so supportive! Between Jenny's daily email and answering all of my questions, Jess' goodies, Becky's search for cooked sushi, Alexis' midwife recommendation, and Tricia's thoughtfulness I feel completely overwhelmed with love. When I told small group the other night, Leah said, "I feel like this is OUR baby". Now how sweet is that?! Of course, I promptly told her she would be first in line for a dirty diaper change when on Tuesday nights when we meet. :) But in all seriousness, it makes things so much easier to have a solid support system and have people around who are thrilled about this (and who want to talk about it). I'm completely consumed (morning sickness just won't let me forget, haha) so it's nice to have women around to discuss my excitement, anxiety, etc.
And the crazy thing is, I've already received gifts! For those of you who have read the Love Languages book, I believe one of mine is receiving gifts. It can be homemade, cost a penny, but I love people who take time to get me something thoughtful. First, Tricia and JR (our former small group leaders) send me pre-natal organic lotions and oils. Yum! And then Jessica put together a package of all kinds of goodies that she found were most helpful to her throughout her pregnancy. I don't know how she found time to do that when she's still working and preparing for Brecken to arrive around the 6th. So as you can imagine, both were a very sweet surprise and made feel very loved!
Here are the goodies:
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Yep, I'm pregnant
We came back on Wednesday, and although they're were a lot of moms-to-be there, we were seen within an hour. They took a urine sample and confirmed what we knew already - I'm knocked up. ;) I was happy to be seen by Margaret Strickhouser for my first visit. After all, she's the best midwife in Atlanta! I loved her hippiness (because I'm one at heart) and that she encourages natural pregnancy and delivery. She told me that obstetrics is overshadowed by fear and anxiety but the realty is that our bodies are made to do this and she had no doubt in my ability to handle it all. Her humor was awesome (I quote, "You have two choices here: epidural or aquadural. About the time you say you can't take the pain anymore, we throw you in the birthing pool".) Haha. I loved this lady from the second I met her. She called out my symptoms (now Tad doesn't think I'm crazy for smelling weird things that he can't smell) and made me feel at ease with all this craziness going on inside of me. I can't wait to see her again. :) And, by the way, she delivered 5 babies in 20 hours on Monday. Insane!
Nothing exciting was really done at this appointment. She said she could check me to see if my uterus was enlarged, but she knew it was. I didn't bother. It was more about getting to know her and her outlook on obstetrics. The next appointment she will do the doppler and hopefully we will hear the heartbeat. My appointment is on Monday, February 14th after all. A perfect day to hear a new heart beating!
I probably won't get an ultrasound until 12 weeks. She doesn't recommend getting them often. We talked about the vaccination/autism craze and she said that vaccinations haven't changed much over the years but the amount of ultrasounds and epidurals given has. She didn't right out say that she thought it had anything to do with the increase in cases, but she recommends keeping them at a minimum. I'm trusting her judgement and would rather play it safe than give in to my selfishness of wanting to see this blueberry inside of me!
Here's a link to Intown Midwifery.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
9, 10, 11
Friday, January 21, 2011
Working through it
Right now, I'm trying to eat every couple of hours, drink lots of water, and when the nausea hits, pop in a jolly ranger. Sometimes these things work, this morning, nothing has. I've also realized that if I'm busy working, in a meeting talking to other people, or doing something active/working out then I don't feel those symptoms as badly. But if I'm riding in the car or sitting at my desk then I pay closer attention to being green. Maybe I should just fill up my calendar?! Green is not a good look for me.
On another note, we told my sister and parents Saturday night about bb. My sister was hilarious. We met her, Cale, Lilli and Avery at the movies in McDonough to see Tangled. I pulled up the positive pregnancy test pic on my iphone and showed it to her. She said, "Oh cool, you got a new case". (Because I got an otterbox for my phone.) Doh. I told her to look at the pic and she was shocked (and got teary-eyed, which was really sweet). After all, Abby has been the one harassing us to have a baby (only because she wants 10 kids but Cale won't have it). :) Needless to say, she's super excited and her being excited, made me more excited and hopeful that all works out!
Telling mom and dad was a bit different. I debated on waiting until the 12 weeks. I love my dad soooo much, but he has the BIGGEST.MOUTH.EVER. He can't keep a secret. And bb is a BIG secret to keep. But, I knew I had to tell them. So, of course, I premise my announcement with... okay, so you can't tell anyone until I say it's okay. And Mom, said "you're pregnant". Bingo. I reminded them not to tell anyone and one time my dad said, "Not even brothers." Haha. No, dad... no one. We'll see how it goes. It's such a weird thing. I mean, I want to shout it to everyone, but I also want to minimize the amount of explaining I'd have to do if I have a miscarriage, which everyone knows happens often in women. Hopefully these next 5 weeks go by quickly -- for my sake (this nausea has GOT TO GO), for Tad's sake (because he's been taking on more than normal and helping me tons),for my dad's sake (so he doesn't accidentally slip) and of course for baby Busby.
And about telling people... there are some folks that I am planning to tell, that I haven't yet because I haven't seen them. Specifically, Jessica and Becky. I'll see Jess tomorrow for Lindsay Merriman Lewis' shower so I'm excited to share the news with her (especially, because she's due with Brecken next month). Plus, we've been planning to have babies together since uhhh 6th grade. ;) We'll have to take a pregnancy picture, haha. Becky has invited me to sushi (which I can't eat) so I may still go and tell her WHY I can't partake. I don't think anyone anticipated it happening this quickly (because I've told all of them that we were starting to try) so it's an even bigger surprise. Yay!
Now, Jenny, on the other hand -- I couldn't wait. She is the pregno queen/expert (after all, she's got the third bun in the oven right now) and I needed to tell her ASAP because she talks as much as I do (we both ask a million questions and want every detail) and I know she'd give it to me straight - risks, symptoms, pains, etc etc etc. I actually emailed her the picture of the pee stick and then called her while she opened it. Too bad I think Jason, her husband, saw it on his iphone first and sent her an email with the subject line "positive". Kind of makes me wish my unofficial due date wasn't his birthday. ;) Just kidding. Anyway, Jenny was all kinds of excited and I believe she even mentioned maternity clothes that I could borrow during that first phone calls. She's hilarious. It's been fun talking to her the past couple of weeks about everything.
Because I can't wait to tell small group, I moved my doctor's appointment up to Monday from Wednesday. That way, if all is well, I can share the news Tuesday night when we meet. Since we're going ice skating next Sunday (and I can't participate) I figured it would be nice to share the news at our next meeting instead of in the parking lot at Park Tavern. Plus, they'll quit clipping EPT pregnancy test coupons for me and talking about us making a baby. FYI, the BABY IS MADE! Haha. It sounds like we've told a lot of people, huh? I mean, really, Tad and I have no secrets and those close to us know that. ;)
Okay, I'm off to pee. (Another symptom it doesn't look like I'll be able to shake!)